Sucking Royally

Still sucking royally. At least I've started using the NVC (non-violent communication) technique of asking myself if I'd be willing to do a specific activity with full presence. I usually tell myself yes. Then I suck at it. But I CAN do it. I just need to keep doing it and rewarding myself. And I'm keeping my Watching the Thinker journal so I can become aware of what's in my way.